The most intense sense of the dance can be described in one word: courage — in the brightest sense of the word. Sevil Gasanova, 32, Senior Associate at international law firm Macleod Dixon LLP (Canada), Almaty
Sevil Gasanova, 32, Senior Associate at international law firm Macleod Dixon LLP (Canada), Almaty
The most intense sense of the dance can be described in one word: courage — in the brightest sense of the word. Moreover, it is unnatural to me by nature; I am a calm, settled person. And here something hits you and you want to create something, to make, to spend energy somewhere.
The second striking sensation — I've probably remembered something very far away, like a hunter in a primitive world. A powerful concentration of all — thoughts, collected body, clearly marked goal, strength, and somehow the joy of it all. So to speak, this is not the spirit of the hunter — to kill, but it is positive, even just to run next to a deer. I thought this could be done for hours, tirelessly — to run on the prairie, on the field, with absolutely no fatigue, without losing concentration. The mind is really relaxing, very clean and with a clear conscience and clear goals. This concentration is when you have one object and nothing else around.
After the dance I did not have to see myself in the mirror — I felt that my eyes were burning like two coals, and, as a spotlight, illuminating something. The general feeling was comparable to the feeling after the first intensives of the practice, but here it was much brighter, there was more energy accumulated in such a short period of time. And then, when the dance was over, one wants absolutely nothing — to speak or share feelings. You're just enjoying the feeling that was experienced. I didn’t need to prove to others that it was good, I just knew it myself. A very deep sense of peace, full of satisfaction of what we did.
It is very difficult to keep pace with Tatiana Vladimirovna and repeat every movement exactly, but in some moments when you are most immersed in a trance, you realize that you do not know how to do it, but you do it exactly the way you should do. At such moments of dive, it was something special — you feel everything like a dancing single organism, you feel all the others around you — you are connected with each of them separately and all together.
I myself understood that is not in vain when Master talks about initiation of a trans-leader. There is no other way around it. Before the dance I watched the dance video, from time to time, switching to the screen from the projector — it is quite different. You can do it without a leader, but it's just a good dance, there will not be such an effect — it's definitely true. Eye contact is very important because you not only show the movement — something is being passed along with it. I was surprised that Tatyana, though she was older than all of the active participants, she was better than any of the youngest, most plastic ones, etc. And her plastic and grace — it is impossible to compare with any of the dancers. I attribute this to initiation; it does play a huge role.